Whatever, I write what I want!

Sorry, but this is coming out.

Self-censorship! People (not just authors) censoring their own work out of fear of what others may think. This is actually a real thing? I mean, I’m definitely guilty of doing this myself, sometimes (which roughly translates to, “every story I’ve ever attempted to write”), but I’ve never really thought much of it. I didn’t really think that there was a name for it.

Why am I discussing this? Well, because of a tweet I posted yesterday. It was just an offhanded comment. I didn’t know whether I should use a particular word or not, and then after a while I just thought, “Screw it! It’s my novel, so why shouldn’t I write what I want?” And that’s where I left it. I didn’t let it get to me. I wrote what I wanted to write, turned off my laptop and went to bed. Done.

And then I woke up. And for some reason, I can’t seem to shake off the thought of self-censorship. For me, I found that when I posted the first few chapters of a story online, and people liked it and commented on it, it would hugely affect the path of the storyline. But an affected storyline is only half the issue (maybe even less of an issue), because what I also found is that when I wanted my character to say, think or do something, I could never make them say, think or do anything that I thought others might find highly vulgar or offensive. Even if it perfectly matched their personality! And that’s a definite issue when it’s in the first-person. Moral of the story? Don’t post unfinished stories online if you can’t stop other people’s comments clawing their way into your head and hatching their own tamer ideas that you’re not okay with, but only write because you think that’s what they’ll want and you don’t know how easily offended they are.

So, I thought about this a little, yesterday, but even more when I woke up today. Sure, it would be fantastic to be successful and actually have a core demographic to write for. But I’m not and I don’t. And you know what? The chances that that will actually happen are pretty slim. I’m just an eighteen-year-old, writing for my own enjoyment. And right now, other people liking my content is just a bonus, not an essential. If nobody else likes my content, then that’s just too bad. If people are going to be highly offended over what I write, then that’s not my problem. I’m not going to change it!

My main point? Don’t let other people affect what you write. Don’t censor yourself just because you’re nervous about what others might think. If you want your character to mouth off at every given opportunity (though, that would probably be pushing it) do it! If you want to write a highly graphic scene, whether it be sexual, violent or whatever, just do it! I’ve decided that I’m not censoring my writing anymore (don’t worry though, I’ll be a little hypocritical and keep this blog clean . . . for now). I know that this doesn’t apply to everyone, but to those of you that it does, just don’t be afraid of writing what you want to write. It’s your story, you call the shots.

Laurence out.


Greetings Interwebs!

Well, I’ve finally made one. I’ve been wanting to make one for a while, and here it is.

So, hey. I guess I should introduce myself, right? My name is Laurence and right now I’m in the final days of my college life. Just two more exams and that will be me done with college, and hopefully I’ll move on to university, where I hope to study law. I’m literally (not literally) in love with music, and if I’m awake, chances are that there’s one tune or another in my head. Music (as I’m sure it is for many others) is one of my main inspirations when I’m writing. But that’s not why you’re here, is it? I mean, this is my writing blog, is it not? So, maybe I should stop with all the rhetorical questions, don’t you think?

Anyway, what I want this blog to be about is my . . . writing. As limited as that would make this, let’s give it a shot, anyway, right? (Gah! More rhetoricals! Stop Laurence, stop!) I like writing about a world where everyone has an ability, and I want to sort of build up a whole world with an army of characters. I want an army of villains that could take over and destroy the world! And then an army of heroes who could stop them and take it back! . . . (That doesn’t sound hypocritical. Nope, of course not.) But I do plan to write different stories with different heroes and villains or maybe even antiheroes and antivillains . . . And, who knows? Maybe I’ll throw in a person who has no abilities, just for the lols. I guess some would call this Sci-fi . . . But I sometimes write the occasional romance or life experience story thing . . . What?

So, that’s what’s up. And what will be up is probably just how my characters seem to disobey everything I want them to do! Yep, I’m one of those authors who can’t control their characters with an iron fist. Yes, yes, I know I’m the author. It’s a writer thing. Totally not weird. So, there’s that, and then there’s the whole experience, of which I usually experience few of the joys and many of the frustrations, but will still end up loving the overall experience.

And my display name? That’s not because I write so fast, like I’m just in some crazy writing frenzy. Nope. That’s because I go in head first, with minimal planing, and hope for the best. Now that I think about it, that’s not the greatest idea, is it?

If you’ve managed to stay with me for these few paragraphs, then you are awesome! If you haven’t . . . well, I don’t blame you. 😀 So, this is my blog, and if you want to follow me then that would make you centuple awesome. I hope you’ll enjoy the many ramblings I’ll have on here.

Laurence out.